You might have already known, but it's just been such a rollercoaster ride for me these past days. In the initial stages after the inevitable happened, I had the strength to be myself and always approach you, and offer my strength to try to make things better for you. Thereafter you just seemed to manage on your own; somewhere somehow along the way I slowly crumbled on the inside - like I really depended on you.

Now the thought of you can trigger ripples in my heart. It might take some time for me to be myself before you again, but please be patient with me. It's really my first emotional entanglement which I must conquer conscientiously and not bury. Wounds brought out by my life thus far too, which I'm glad to be slowly being healed first and foremost by God now. Rather than later, or in a worse situation, or with a less forgiving and patient girl. And it's not something I want you to do, or that you should even do at all. Similarly, I can't be the one who is first and foremost there for you as much as I might want to. Only God can, or whosoever He wishes in His infinite wisdom and love for you. That's why we chose this path. So pray for me... For I'll pray for you...
Your beautiful soul is deserving to be fought for. And you don't need that validation from any man, because God fights for you right now. And I will find my strength from our Lover Himself too before I would dare to offer it to anyone...

So release and let that kite fly far, embrace the breeze that whispers God's love
Let go and he will keep the kite in the air better than you or I can

Let's walk together with our eyes ahead
For it's dangerous to look into each other's eyes